Code Zulu Alpha: Nerd in the Apocalypse!

Chapter 1174: Labels - I-I’ll… I-I’ll show you mine if you s-show me yours…



At this point, June and Kaley shared a glance again but June turned back to me with a—surprisingly enough, a very chill expression. It seemed like the two came to some sort of understanding but it didn't take long before she told me that they had almost the same conversation I had with Mrs. Dewey.

"Kaley and I have a good talk after uhh… she saw 'me', so… as we stated, we didn't do anything and we showered separately—"

"Then?"

"Then what?" June asked as she slightly tilted her head.

"Y-You know…" I trailed as I looked a few degrees lower.

"Ah— Pfft! Do you really want to know?!" June chuckled as she looked at me with sparkling eyes.

I nodded sheepishly, "It's… It's that important… to me, at least…"

Kaley cut in, "Why though?"

June nodded, "Yeah, why? It's not like—"

Kaley's eyes suddenly went wide, "U-Unless…"

June was confused for a slight bit before realization struck as well, "Unless— Oh… Oh! I— Umm— I, uhh… Hmm— A-ARE YOU IMPLYING WHAT I THINK YOU'RE IMPLYING?!"

I scratched the side of my cheek, "Umm… Why don't we three sit down and have an honest talk?"

June just looked straight into my eyes for a moment before she smiled and nodded, "Sure, I already told Kaley so… I can't believe I'm doing this but— It's a scary-good kind of thing, you know? But kind of liberating at the same time, so yeah… I'm—"

At that point, June gave us— or should I say, just me at this point, a very detailed explanation of… of her.

From what I understood, she was born with both genitalia, classifying her as being Intersex, but since she was born into this hospital that the Deweys owned, instead of assigning her a legal sex by means of surgery—which was the "normal" but controversial thing to do in these types of cases—Mrs. Dewey decided to hold it off until June could decide for herself.

"H-Honestly, I really thought I was just a very weird boy at first but puberty came and I started growing t-tits…" .net

I asked, "Why are you a weird boy if you just—"

Kaley cut me off, "You… You better listen first…"

"Right, sorry… continue, please…" I said as I turned back to June.

June just shook her head as she chuckled, "Well~ To answer your question, I found myself 'weird' when I discovered that I don't have any… umm… you, know those two things that should be hanging below my… you know…"

"Oh… then—"

"Instead… I… I have umm… 'lips'… under there where the inside gets… you know, w-when I get aroused— e-excited, I mean, and umm… but I don't have that l-little bean that's very s-sensitive to touch like every normal woman does… But yeah, I dunno why but my… boy part is extra, extra sensitive—probably compensating for something missing, you know?"

"You know your body pretty well then?"

"Yes… Mom told me about my condition very early on and explained things even if I couldn't understand most of them at the time… She kept on though and I explored myself because there are very few books—or none at all that could best describe what I am down there because my condition's unique as is…"

"I see… It's not a condition if you're referring to it as a disease or something… It's just biology, no?"

June let out a warm smile as she chuckled, "I dunno about that… History suggested otherwise, but thank you, I may not be the exact same as the people who are like me… But still, I'm very happy and thankful that Mom decided to hold off on the affirmation surgery at the time.

I still have a, umm… a slightly smaller p-penis—to answer your question, and it does 'work'—but you know, inside my head, I still see myself as a woman… not to sound too woke-ish or anything…"

"No at all… You're just explaining yourself, no?"

June shrugged her shoulders, "A lot of people use a lot of buzzwords to identify and such and they get too mad when people new to the billion terms get it wrong but what they don't get is that everyone makes mistakes. But at the same time, people don't have the same views as each other. It's just sad when I think about it more but isn't it simpler if they just refer to everyone by their names?"

I nodded, "That's one way, of course, but people do get hung up on labels. The world offers a ton of information that could make any normal person insane if they take it all in—aside from me, heh, because I'm already insane— hol' up, yeah, that's probably why I'm slightly psycho so… Where was I going again?"

"The ton of information thingy, pfft…" June said as she slowly placed her arms by her lap, sitting cross-legged.

"Yeah, that one… In my opinion, labels are used to create some semblance of order since we could call something, someone, or a collection that particular term easily but with how each individual in your particular spectrum is… it just makes labeling much, much harder and confusing."

"T-That's true…"

"It breeds a lot of chaos because some people couldn't keep up or just straight-up deny your existence—and at the same time, more and more specific terms keep getting added on because of different nuances, totally different to what people were used to for several years, but then again, it's getting more personal and more unique to each person, more so to the fact that it was getting more difficult to just call them by their names…"

"It's just a way we could voice out that we're also here but it just gets too personal for just that one part of one's existence. There should be more than what we're 'supposed' to be called, right?

That shouldn't be the only thing to define us… I know I'm different but I stick to a term that's simpler because there's more to me than being called my sex, gender, gender identity, you know the whole convoluted thing people fight about…"

"I agree with that but yeah, existing— don't you fucking exist already? Seeing you right here is already proof, not tiptoeing around things I should and shouldn't refer to you as. In addition, since you mentioned that you don't fall into any of those complex labels while identifying as a woman…"

"Go on…"

"It might make it sound easier—and don't get mad at me on this but… isn't it another layer to take into account due to how unique everyone is? How unique you are, me, Kaley, and everyone in this world. So in a sense, labels could only label so much if you think about it but it loses its meaning—to make things simple and identifiable—if we focus on it too much…"

"...! That's… It's kinda sweet though… hearing these things from you…"

I lightly smiled, "If we're talking about me, I'd easily fall into very simple categories but if we dig a little deeper, I have a ton of layers too… It's just that… Hmm… In the grand scheme of things, I think if we don't get too extreme about it, labels do make everyone's life easier but I also think we should not get too hung up on it from both sides, of course.

People are people and you're right, we could always stick to people's names but it also wouldn't hurt to be a little understanding, again, from both sides. We have a lot more problems than that…"

"..." June and Kaley nodded slowly.

I continued, "It's definitely gonna be a ton of work to incorporate that but whaddayouknow, we just had a restart of sorts a year ago, so… we could just leave it as is or add a few rows of information but not get too extreme or hung up about it… I can't believe how much I'm saying that phrase… And again, some people don't need to prove their existence because they already do and don't get me wrong, everyone is special, of course, but there should be a balance between things… But yeah… While we're still on the topic…"

"Hmm?"

"Are you bigger than me or what— OW! WHAT GIVES?! I AM CURIOUS, ALRIGHT?!"

"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! KALEY, STOP HITTING HIM!"

"BUT— RIGHT AS WE THOUGHT—"

"IT'S FINE! IT'S FINE— OH GOD, MY STOMACH'S HURTING FROM LAUGHING TOO MUCH!"

From then on, I tried to get back on Kaley by slightly choking her from the back but it just made her a little more visibly… aroused. I definitely noticed the ragged-ness in her breath as I eventually let go but we just noticed that June's face was also a little red while she was looking at us.

An unbelievable amount of tension was surrounding us right now and it'll only take one moment before we escalated things abruptly.

However, I believed that we were still far from heading in that direction because as of right now, my completely honest question still wasn't answered completely. In addition, these were very new waters I didn't want to just plunge into and I wanted to learn as much as I could given we're all being open books about it.

I also wanna get my thoughts and feelings sorted and at the same time, I wanted Kaley and June to do the same thing too.

But yeah, June took it upon herself as she slowly stood up to accommodate me by offering the chance of some visual learning:

"If… If you're that curious… I-I'll… I-I'll show you mine if you s-show me yours…"


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